January 2012
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Memo: It Could Be Worse
The other night, my brother and I shared one of our rare moments when we actually talk about what’s going on in our lives and share our thoughts about things. It was motivated by his current struggle to maintain his finances to fit his/his families lifestyle. Of course, my current financial state came up.
My family doesn’t really understand me. It’s a given but, hey, they love...
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"I Make Art" - Elmo
Throughout my life, I’ve often wondered how people become artists. I mean, I’ve alwasy understood creativity, and craft, and all that jazz but never, really, what took all of that the next step?
I’ve wondered because I’ve always been an admirer of art and, also, I’ve had the privilege of knowing many people whom I would consider artists. You know, people whose life...
December 2011
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Let Them Read (Bound) Books!
I used to work for the now defunked BORDERS. You remember, that OTHER mainstream commercial bookstore. Although I certainly will agree that in it’s last years it was no longer what it had represented as an overall company and a mere seller of books, I stuck wit’ it to the end.
The area I grew up in was a small desert town made into a recognizable geographical location by the other...
November 2011
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I’m not one for being stable and sedentary but I’ve always wanted a house/apartment to own so I can put up artwork, makes tons of foods and invite people over, have game/movie/random thing nights. That is all.
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I am a social animal
This past weekend, I was reminded that I am a social animal. It’s taken me quite some time for me to establish a social life here, mostly because I don’t really know how to do that around my family here who is, well, just totally different than me. Mostly, really, they’re just always up in my business in that, I don’t know, non-judgmental but still invasive way that...
October 2011
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We shall call her, Epiphany.
I had an epiphany, last night about myself and the phenomenon known as the interwebz.
Lately, I’ve been in an emotional, mental, and creative slump. In the past month, I’ve had too much time on my hands and have found myself unable to channel it through something. Always before, I have found solace in writing but in my current state, even that, has done little for me. Namely, because...
Feeling My Age
You know, I’ve never been one to moan and grown about getting older. I’ve lived to get older since I was a little boy. I’ve always felt good about the kind of life I led because, despite not having attained certain things that society said I should have attained by any certain age, I had a lot of other things to compensate.
Lately, I don’t feel like that. My life has...
Tumblr is weird. Even after being on here for a couple years, I still feel like I don’t really get it. I feel like somebodies dad trying to be hep and cool for his kid’s friends and kind of almost hits the mark but not quite because, you know, I’m cool, but I just don’t quite get it the way they do.
August 2011
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Hi there, tumblr land. I haven’t written in a while. Why? Well, because my vida loca has been a bit more loca than usual but, unusually, also more blah.
My store/company is going out of business. Yes, I work for Borders. You, three people who read this blog already knew it but I always heard horror stories about people who wrote about the company and lost their jobs and shit so, I never...
Anger is such and easy emotion, that’s why I’ve never dealt too much with it. I’m saying this because, lately, I’ve seen others react to just about everything in their life that displeases them with anger and I feel like telling them that it’s such a pointless and useless emotiong because it, usually, hurts nobody but yourself. Do you think people care that your...
July 2011
3 posts
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RQJjUbMrt8w&feature=... →
I LOOOVEEDD this song in high school. I was such a lesbian.
In a few weeks, I will be attending my first social gathering her in Vegas and it is reminding me of the ONE college party I went to in College. My friend and I had arrived just as beer pong was winding down with a bottle of decent Vodka (I was concerned that there would only be Natty Ice and Smirnoff).
The upcoming event is for a co-worker who is turning…20 and is renting a room at a...
You know what I find so interesting, you don’t lose your faith in the elevated notion of “degrees” untill you go to college and get one.
I’m currently having job issues and my brother keeps telling me I should get a job that has to do something with “my degree” as if it’s a legit tangible thing. Were it a masters, it might be a TAD more tangible but...
June 2011
3 posts
So, I’ve been having body issues. Not in a, I hate my body kinda way, but in a, if I had this body I’d have this kinda way. Mostly, it has to do with job options here in LV specifically but, you know it’s kinda all over the place. There are a lot of jobs here in LV that “require” you to have a good bod or, at least, look hot in clothes. Theres SOOOO MUCCHHHHH...
Big
Before I continue to write, I feel I must make something clear. I am a big gay man and by “Big” I mean, literally.
This past weekend, one of my oldest and arguabley bestest friend came to Las Vegas to participate in “Bigger Vegas,” and annual Vegas convergence of a social website called “Bigger City” for big gay dudes (chubs) and the other gay dudes who love...
May 2011
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This weekend, despite all the fun I had, I also got a lot to think about; mostly about relationships and joining/participating in groups. My thoughts aren’t fully flushed (not that that has ever bothered me) so I won’t go any further but, had to let a bit of it out.
I’m on my way to becoming a statistic. I need more self control.
What’s up?
Just some rants:
I wish people, guys in partic, would stop wearing skinny jeans if they don’t have the body type for it. No, I’m not saying tubby cuz, actually, I’ve seen some tubby’s wearing skinny and it don’t look bad. I’m just saying, be aware of what looks good on your body and don’t be a douche and just wear something because...
I’m not much of a Hemmingway man, but A Clean Well-lit Place, has always sort of stuck with me. I’ve always dwelled on getting old and, even in the youth from which I read it, I sort of knew/dreaded/welcomed becoming that old man. It’s like I wanted to sort of skip all the actual living and jump to the part where I could just sit around and contemplate everything I’ve done...
April 2011
6 posts
What makes people different?
You know, I love myself, I really do but sometimes certain things happen that make me wonder why am I so different? Or, dare I say, on those very low of lows, what’s wrong with me?!
Today, a coworker, after his shift stayed late and smoked a cigar with one of our regular customers. It was a beautiful warm night and, as I looked on them I grew insanely...
Hey folks who follow me, I just want to remind you of my other little tumblr, I Thought I Told You. If you’re not particularly interested in the ranty BS I write in here, give it a whirl. It’s about movies and stuff. So, yeah, just saying. In the words of Fergie, check it out!
My sis-in-law and nieces are gone for the week and my bro is working overnights so…..I basically have the house to myself for a whole week!!!!!
Today, I was gonna make my go-to celbratory meal, Steak and a nice salad, but I got home and realized we were out of oil! Wah wah wah….
It’s okay though because tomorrow I get off a bit early from work and won’t have to eat so...
Will making beef stew today, I had thoughts on the politics of cooking. I’m currently living in a situation in which when and what I cook is tinged with politics.
I live with my brother and fam. The politics I speak of are mostly with my sis-in-law and the kitchen. My SIL cooks, and does it well, but she is not someone who is passionate about cooking. Really, she learned to cook when she...
I’m not one to gripe about age but, sometimes, I feel it when I just DON’T GET young people. In particular, I’ve been having this sort of post-modern existentialist conundrum thing about the youth of today and my youth.
When I was younger, you kind of CHOSE to be a certain kind of person, you know? You sorta looked what was around you, sort of ingested it, decided what parts...
Sucker Punch vs Bjork.
So, last night I saw “Sucker Punch” with the fam and it took me back to my youth. I may be spoiling stuff for you here but, whatevs. When Baby Doll was first asked to dance to none other than Bjork’s “Army of Me” it was all I could do to not burst out in hysterical laughter.
You see, I used to be a HUUUUGGGEEE Bjork fan. I am still a fan just not as much as I used...
March 2011
9 posts
So, my sister, despite all of our protests, went back to school. We protested because it just really wasn’t the right time for her but, her hubby, kept puttin the pressure on and she got tired of arguing. Don’t get me wrong, school is a great idea for her but, like I said, not the right time. Ultimately, she has so many things going on in her life that I’m just not sure she is...
Yesterday, I ventured further out on my Vegas experience. I’ve grown tired of being at home so I will spend my days off in the street just checking stuff out. Firstly, I plan to check out all the casinos which, so far, don’t seem too different. So, yesterday, I went to The Palms.
Casinowise, it wasn’t much different than all the others except some of the machines seemed...
Well, siince I’m oversharing. The night ended as expected.
Me, in my underwear, practicing my non-existante drag routines.
I like to thing that I, as Tequila Mockingbird, would be out of the box (that would be my vagina joke) and edgy. I mean, how many drag queens out there would do “Zero” by the Yeah Yeah Yeahs?
So, I’m drunk.
I’ve been drinking alone, on this St. Paddy’s eve, and my thoughts are churning. Like butta’.
Today, I feel, was the first day that I was just me here in Vegas. The past two weeks, on my days off, I had to drive to Cali and back. I loved those six hour drives for the solace they provided me and the ability to visit San Diego, my true love. I love San...
Drinking vodka tonics in a n In-N-Out cup watching America’s Next Top Model on You Tube.
This is my life.
Happy St. Patricks Day.
A friend on yea ol’ Facebook invited me to this stupid event called Red Friday. It’s supposed to get people together to wear red every Friday in support of troops and their family.
Don’t get me wrong, I support Troops and their family, not out of any sense of patriotism, but because they are people are being put through some severely trying times that will impact their lives...
I had the urge to write a poem yesterday. I haven’t had that urge in a while! After the fact, I got excited (although I have become a bit cynical towards poetry) because I feel it’s a sign of my creative juices beginning to flow like they used to!
Sometimes, you just have to run away.
I’ve been feeling a bit restless the past month for lack of general comraderie and having fun. Or at least, just doing whatever the hell I wanted without somebody being all up in my grill about. Well, I’m happy to say that has been mediated for the most part.
I drove to California last week to pick up my mom and bring her to Vegas and to get...
February 2011
11 posts
I’ve wanted a stand-up mixer since, well, forever. Yes, it’s kinda lame but I love to be in the kitchen and stand-up mixers (and food processors) are the final frontier of kitchen gadgetry. I mean, with those two thing you can make EVERYTHING!!
I’ve never gotten one because they are on the pricely side but, mostly, because buying large/expensive furniture/gadgets equals long...
tonight, on the drive home, I found myself singing aloud to Fergie’s Big Girls Don’t cry and stuffing my face with Ghirardelli’s choclate. I found that to be particularly tragic.
I was feeling antsy today so wandered into the strip to just be part of it all. First, you can’t just WANDER into the strip. It’s kinda a dumb place to just wander because it takes all this time. I got lost in Treasure Island until I found the way out and then only made it a couple blocks because it got too cold and I’m sick.
Also, I’m a kid who likes to do it on his...
my brother only listens to classic rock and old school mexican music. He’s been listenting to the same stuff since he was in high school. It makes me laugh. Oh yeah, he also listens to Lincoln Park.
LIFE UPDATE:
I’m still in Las Vegas but, really, kinda wishing I was in San Diego. I’m gainfully employed with the same certain seller of books that I have been with for about five years. I even got a fancy little diploma-type thing, as if it really means anything. My company has been fighting an uphill battle for the past couple of years but it’s hanging on. I’m...
