So, I’ve been having body issues.  Not in a, I hate my body kinda way, but in a, if I had this body I’d have this kinda way.  Mostly, it has to do with job options here in LV specifically but, you know it’s kinda all over the place.  There are a lot of jobs here in LV that “require” you to have a good bod or, at least, look hot in clothes.  Theres SOOOO MUCCHHHHH wrong with that but, you know, I’d rather hate it from the inside than from the outside.  Really, I just want a new job and I don’t want to really go through hoops to get one with the resumes, and the experience, and the blah blah blah. It’d be nice to just be like all “I’m hot” and they are all like “you’re hot.” and that’s it. 

Sigh. 

Anyway, so I’ve been contemplating doing the whole gym thing and all that to, let’s face it, conform a little and then I read this article and now I”m all fucked up! I want to be all “fuck yeah” don’t conform!!!!! but then I”m like all fuck it and then I’m all like blaaahhhhh. moslty I’m blaaahhhhh

How does one get out of ruts?